I think my BPD is making me fall for people really fast. It's kind of awkward I get really intense crushes really quick. Does anyone else get that?

Sure do. My version of lust is more of a crush/puppy-love high through the perception that I’m being desired. It doesn’t matter whether I’m into the other person or not.

What it feels like: When you think someone has a crush on you who you don’t even like, but feel so intoxicated by the validation and ego boost because it distracts you from feeling like a worthless nobody so you start to care what they think and that tricks you into thinking you actually like them and you pay extra close attention to signs they may like you and when they do something that you perceive as rejection you start to split and hate them and wonder why you cared that much in the first place when there was no initial attraction there :). 

I think I’m too afraid of rejection to want someone who may not want me.